(originally posted on 2017-01-06 | 20:27:49)
I increased the amount of the pain medicines,
but it doesn’t last long and the pain gets worse again.
Pain hurts me.
It is painful emotionally.
I know that I can keep my calmness as long as I can control pain with support from my palliative doctor,
so I just have to hold myself a bit more until the medicine works.
I describe my medicines “Monsieur pain-reliever”.
I will also start radiotherapy only on the painful areas.
Hopefully, it helps to ease the pain.
As I was, however, late to make my mind, I can’t start it yet and so I’ve been just eagerly waiting for it.
Since I am staying at the hospital now, the nurses are around all the time, which is very nice and reassuring.
I am hoping that those of you, who are more struggling or suffering from greater pains, can have at least a moment to feel peaceful.
